Fuck you gonzalez. Its not like im gonna be fluent in spanish with your stupid conjugations. I give up.

What is there left to look forward to? i regret it so much. At first i thought i could handle it, but i never really thought of what i was doing, not only to myself, but to it and the people i love. I really wish i had someone i could just break down to…someone who understands. I’ve lost trust in so many of my friends that i just let it build up even more inside and that just makes me hate myself so much more. I wish my life wasn’t so complicated and my family wasn’t so strict and cultural. I just want to be able to have a conversation with someone who doesn’t judge me for what I’ve done or how i look or act. I’m scared to even speak :( crying doesn’t help, it just makes things worse and more depressing. I never thought i’d say this but i look forward to school every morning because its a place i can run away to, a place away from home, a place where i can see my friends and just get away from everything. But even at school I cant avoid it…it’s gonna stay with me my whole life. Why do i even try anymore? I’ll never be able to forgive myself for what i did.